2002-12-26 - 9:34 p.m.
This is a conversation I had with the insurance guy long ago. It was before I think he thought I was a possiblity.
When I read this my heart sort of aches cause I keep thinking....I like this guy and we are discussing dating other people. We are discussing this because we are friends....friends who fuck....now usually that works for me but as we all know women get attached. There some weird chemical in our brain that goes wacky when we sleep with someone. They get into our hearts that way and stay there. I have to say I feel somewhat of an emotional attachment to everyone I have sex with. Some more than others but I still seem to be able to be friends with people when the sex stops.....
I also look at this converstation and realize what a selfish person insurance guy can be....and what a fool I am.
interested_5000: hey there....you would have gotten a big laugh out of me tonight......ha
mediamaven: why
mediamaven: what up
interested_5000: lol....what up?
interested_5000: jk
mediamaven :well with you know what know what's up
interested_5000 : ok ok
interested_5000: any way
mediamaven : yes
interested_5000: i made a bit of a fool out of myself tonight:o)
mediamaven : k
mediamaven : did you ask the hairdresser out
interested_5000; asked the haircutter gal out...
interested_5000 : and recieved a definite NO
mediamaven : oh
mediamaven : sorry
mediamaven : that must smart
interested_5000: so needless to say i was a tad embarassed
mediamaven : wow did you just walk in there and do it
interested_5000 : but we all need a little humility now and again...lol
mediamaven : do you know her name
mediamaven : now at least
interested_5000 : yeah...well i called earlier to ask what her name was and when she would be working....so i went in and purchased some hair crap....talked to her quick.....and found a polite way to bring it up
interested_5000 : then WHAMO
interested_5000 : no
interested_5000 : no
interested_5000 : no
interested_5000 (09:10:25 PM): lol
mediamaven : what does this chick look like?
mediamaven : just curious
interested_5000 : says she has aboyfriend
mediamaven : well why wouldn't she??
interested_5000 : yeah yeah yeah
mediamaven : i mean for god's sake if i wanted a boyfriend tomorrow...i'd have one too
interested_5000 : well.....women just have it easy that way i guess
mediamaven : yes we do
mediamaven : but certain aspects of being female suck
interested_5000 : well..maybe
mediamaven : ummm no maybes about it
interested_5000 : lol..ok
mediamaven : low pay, childbirth, men hitting on us all the time
interested_5000 : so anyway.....i think the group had a good chuckle later on i think
mediamaven : the inability to disconnect our emotions from our wallets
interested_5000 : LOL
mediamaven : so you need to find somewhere else to get hair cut
mediamaven : what did she look like
interested_5000 : yeah maybe
interested_5000 : um....she is about 5-5
interested_5000 : blond hair
interested_5000: (shortish blnd)
interested_5000: green eyes i think
interested_5000 : slender
interested_5000 : long legs
interested_5000 : just plain cute
mediamaven : ok so you didn't ask out goth girl
mediamaven : i was wondering about that
interested_5000 : goth girl??
interested_5000 : who is that?
mediamaven : yeah there is a goth kinda girl that cuts hair
interested_5000 : oh...hmmm
mediamaven : she cuts bryan's hair
interested_5000 : im not sure who that would be
interested_5000 : there are a couple of weirdos in there
mediamaven : she is cute very petite..but dyed hair...weird choppy cut
interested_5000 : you mean goth girl?
Mediamaven: yeah
interested_5000 : oh
mediamaven : sorry about that
interested_5000 : now i remember why i hate asking women out
mediamaven : you have to think about it more like work
mediamaven : don't take the rejection so hard
interested_5000 : yeah yeah
interested_5000 : no at work doesnt bother me
interested_5000 : this fucking fyl!!!!
interested_5000 : fly
interested_5000 : so...i am having a fuel pump put on tomorrow
mediamaven : on your car
interested_5000: no....near my ass......lol
interested_5000 : yes...car
mediamaven : yeah yeah
mediamaven: sorry
interested_5000 : hehe
mediamaven : fuck why am i sorry
interested_5000 : couldnt pass it up
interested_5000 : good question
interested_5000 : hey...enough about me.......hows the house thing
mediamaven : umm
mediamaven : again
mediamaven : i don't want to jinx this
mediamaven : i am so close
interested_5000 : <~~~~~very happy for you
mediamaven: but i almost passed out today
mediamaven: for real
interested_5000: yikes!
mediamaven: yes
interested_5000 : why?
mediamaven: cause i'm weird
interested_5000 : oh..that explains it
mediamaven: stuff like this makes me girly
interested_5000 : ic
mediamaven : well weird doesn't really provide an explanation for most of my behavior
interested_5000 : allrighty
mediamaven: it might describe it at times
mediamaven: be mean
mediamaven : go fo the kill
interested_5000 : ok..so if we cant talk about house...what do we talk about
interested_5000 : ?
mediamaven : long term care insurance
mediamaven: i don't know
mediamaven : i need to find some appliances
mediamaven : i need to grow up
interested_5000 : i hear they have them at appliance stores
mediamaven : yeah well i can't afford new
mediamaven: so used it will be
mediamaven: for now
mediamaven: i will need all my money for my down payment
interested_5000 : ahhh
mediamaven : so am i boring you
interested_5000: lol.....why?
mediamaven: just wondering
interested_5000 : ok
mediamaven : okay so how would you feel about this
interested_5000 : what?
mediamaven: here's my dating dilema
mediamaven: for the week
interested_5000 : k
mediamaven : ag teacher from northeast who i have worked with on numerous things
mediamaven : nice enough
mediamaven : older
interested_5000 : yeah ....and??
mediamaven : well he asked me out to dinner
interested_5000 : lol
mediamaven : i mean i get this all the time
mediamaven : but mostly from construction guys at school
interested_5000 : ok...so why would you consider him above ther est?
mediamaven : cause he has a brain
interested_5000 : well....that is a great thing to look for
interested_5000 : you say he is nice?
mediamaven : he is fairly nice in a work setting
interested_5000 : so why not let him take you out for a nice dinner and see how he is otherwise?
mediamaven: but you know me.....i run from the nice eligible men
interested_5000 : oh...ic
interested_5000 : maybe you should give a chance
interested_5000: him a chance*
mediamaven : why
interested_5000 :: well....
interested_5000 : why not?
interested_5000 : would you tell me his name if i asked?
mediamaven : why
interested_5000 : i might know him
mediamaven : i bet you do
interested_5000 : be able to give some advice
mediamaven : but he also seems to date women way younger than him
mediamaven : and very inappropriate
interested_5000 : and what is wrong with that.....hell
interested_5000 : oh ic
interested_5000 : how old is he?
mediamaven : dating students not good
mediamaven : i may joke at times about it
mediamaven : but i am never serious about it
mediamaven : i think he is in his forties
mediamaven: he looks fortyish
interested_5000 : well if you were to date him....nothing wrong with that
mediamaven : i don't know i never scooped him out as having dating potential
interested_5000 : so tell me who he is
mediamaven : he is an old guy in a tie to me
interested_5000 : hehehe
mediamaven : so this means he will probably get the same treatment you got tonight
mediamaven : from me
interested_5000 geez....dont do that
mediamaven : done it before
interested_5000 : meany
interested_5000 : well....you must like a little bit to be considering it
mediamaven : i've thought about it a little cause i need to grow up
interested_5000 : well....see
interested_5000 : eh.....give him a courtesy date
mediamaven : that would really sort of suck though for him
mediamaven : i know this
interested_5000 er....how?
interested_5000 : hell I�d would have liked the courtesy date
interested_5000 : lol
mediamaven : there was a guy i went out on a date with right after i think i met you
interested_5000 : much better than buying useless hair crap
interested_5000 : and?
mediamaven : he kept calling to ask me why i didn't want to go out again
mediamaven : and calling
mediamaven : and calling
interested_5000 : oh...well......i dunn[
interested_5000 : o*
interested_5000 : explain you have a diff phone #
interested_5000 : how many times has the new guy called?
mediamaven : the new guy
mediamaven : for a date
interested_5000 : yeah
mediamaven : never
interested_5000 : wtf?
mediamaven: he just asked me in person
interested_5000: oh....ok ok
mediamaven : he doesn't know phone number
interested_5000 : and what did you say????
Mediamaven : ahhh
interested_5000 : is that it?
interested_5000 : lol
mediamaven : no
mediamaven : i didn't say that
interested_5000 : did you have tounge out?
mediamaven : no
interested_5000 : lol...jk
mediamaven : it's work
mediamaven at work
mediamaven : i'm not all tricked out in my causal sportswear
interested_5000 : lol......ok....so what
interested_5000: did
interested_5000 : you
interested_5000: say
mediamaven : i said well i'm going to busy
interested_5000 : oh
interested_5000 : hmmmmmmmmmm
mediamaven : who do you know that works at there?
interested_5000 : hey.......you got me to get the nerve up to make an ass of myself...LOL...so hell give it a try
interested_5000 : i cant think of anyone in particular
mediamaven : my problem is this is not me expressing interest in someone
mediamaven : this is me trying to figure out what to do here so he doens't feel like shit like you did
interested_5000 : OH
interested_5000 : ok
mediamaven : if i like someone
interested_5000 : so you dont want to go out with him....is that it?
Mediamaven : although my first impluse is to run far far away
Mediamaven : i will usually just go do something with them and see how it goes
Mediamaven : never a prob
interested_5000 : ahhhh...i c
mediamaven : this.....there are many issues at stake here
mediamaven : i must continue to work with this person
interested_5000 : understand
mediamaven : i mean you can find someone else to cut hair
interested_5000 : true
mediamaven : and you can ask other women out
interested_5000 : maybe
mediamaven : do you see what i'm getting at
mediamaven : i hate to hurt someone's feelings
interested_5000 : yes i do
interested_5000 : and it is very considerate of you
mediamaven : well i try to be considerate
interested_5000 ok....so maybe i dont have the best advise for youi
mediamaven : it's okay
mediamaven : my advice to you obviously was bad
mediamaven : cause it didn;t work
interested_5000 : so you should just tell me who it is...lol
interested_5000 : nah.....you gave great advice....
mediamaven: i mean my friends ken and brad
interested_5000 : actually it worked just fine.....till she said she had a boyfriend
mediamaven : now succesful daters to some extent
mediamaven : brad getting married
interested_5000 : brb...nic fit
mediamaven: ken attempting to date way out of his leauge and succeeding at some level
interested_5000 : lol
interested_5000 : brb
mediamaven : k
interested_5000:here is a tough question
interested_5000: how do you know what your leauge is?
Mediamaven : well that can be tough
mediamaven: for ken i said that cause he is so shy
mediamaven : and he lives with parents
interested_5000 : ok
interested_5000 : and?
Mediamaven : hasn't dated in years cause some women fucked him over
interested_5000 : ahhh
mediamaven : so he is in tough shape
interested_5000 : ok...so back to my point....how do you determine your leauge?
mediamaven f i were a guy i would never think anyone was out of my league
interested_5000 : oh really?
interested_5000 hmmmmm
mediamaven : no
mediamaven : i don't even think of anyone that way anymore
mediamaven : cause everybody has their thing
interested_5000 : i think that might be my prob
mediamaven : i mean i am not gonna appeal to some guy who wants someone who's ninety pounds and quiet
mediamaven : but i have a feeling that i am not gonna be attracted to someone like that to begin with
interested_5000 : hmmmm
mediamaven : i think women have a more realistic view of attraction
mediamaven : cause we factor in stuff like sense of humor, if they seem polite
mediamaven : we are less visual
interested_5000 : hmmmm......i may not entirely agree
mediamaven : less driven by the aesthetic stuff
interested_5000 : but i have heard it before.....so maybe some truth
mediamaven : 21 year old girls are gonna want a hunky guy with cash
interested_5000 : lol...im out
mediamaven : i mean i had that in my twenties
mediamaven : i don't have all this figured out
mediamaven : i do know that men who are able to get what they want
mediamaven : know what they want
mediamaven : and the smart ones have realistic expectations of what is available
interested_5000 : well.....someday i may figure this out
mediamaven : if you do let me know
interested_5000 : timing i think is key
interested_5000 : it all has to do with timing
mediamaven: how so
interested_5000 : hair gal may ahve said yes.....if bf just dumped her
mediamaven : oh that's fate
mediamaven : not timing
interested_5000 : no such thing
interested_5000 : fate=fantasy
mediamaven : nah
interested_5000 : yah
interested_5000 : lol
mediamaven : things happen for a reason
interested_5000 : well....i think we tell ourselves that.....but really....we are in control of our own fate
mediamaven : true
interested_5000 : if i wait around for something to happen...hoping that fate will do its thing....it aint ever gonna happen
mediamaven : but every once in awhile something comes up that we didn't intend or orchestrate
mediamaven : happens
mediamaven: i don't depend on that
interested_5000 : again......timing
interested_5000 : lol
mediamaven : but god takes care of me
mediamaven : i know it
mediamaven : i need to help myself
interested_5000 : geez....im gonna start breakin things to kill this fucking fly
interested_5000: sorry
mediamaven : you're just mad about hair dresser girl
interested_5000 : well..maybe.....but i am very pissed at this fly
mediamaven : well i guess i'm glad you felt confident enough to ask for date
interested_5000 : fucker wont leave me alone....and wont sit so i can smash him
interested_5000 : in a way i am also
interested_5000 : and going in i was ready for a "no"
mediamaven : see i never do that
interested_5000 : never??
interested_5000 : ha
mediamaven : even when odds were staked against me
interested_5000 : well...i guess i was just being realistic.....guessing she was taken
mediamaven : with men
mediamaven : no
interested_5000 : dead fly walkin
mediamaven : good for you
interested_5000 : fuck!
interested_5000 : two of em!!!!!!!!
interested_5000 : shit
mediamaven : the only things i have confidence in are my abilites at work
interested_5000 : and that is a good thing
mediamaven : and my ability to get laid
mediamaven : that is about it
mediamaven : now dating
mediamaven : i suck at it
interested_5000 lol
interested_5000 : ok
mediamaven : relationships
mediamaven : maybe not so good
mediamaven : i'm good out of the gate
interested_5000: yeah..well we all have our faults
interested_5000 : lol
mediamaven : very good
mediamaven : but i can't seem to close the deal
mediamaven : so i need to grow up and figure that out
mediamaven: but honestly i think it's because i don't want too
interested_5000: i agree
mediamaven: when i want too i will do it
mediamaven: and it will work
interested_5000 : yep
mediamaven : i think that might be true for you too
mediamaven : maybe
interested_5000: well.....actually.....
interested_5000 : i know what i want
interested_5000 just not how to get it
interested_5000 : or what i can get
mediamaven : what do you want?
interested_5000 : so i need to figure that all out
mediamaven: if that's not too personal or something
mediamaven : cause you know.....i don't know what i want
interested_5000: hmmm.......lets see
interested_5000: hair cutter gal would fit rahter nicly
interested_5000 : kinda younger
interested_5000: attractive
interested_5000 : comes from out west
interested_5000: seems nice
interested_5000 : good at cutting hair...lol
interested_5000 : this is why i asked about the league thing....maybe im shooting too high
mediamaven : okay so what do you want???
Mediamaven : you want someone younger
interested_5000 : well...read above
mediamaven: you want someone nice looking
mediamaven: you want someone who can have a job or some skill you can utilize
interested_5000: lol
mediamaven : the from bumfuck thing i can't analzye at this point
mediamaven : but i'm sure it's important
interested_5000 : well....just a diff breed of personality out there.....if you met some of these people you might understand
mediamaven : i know these people
mediamaven: i dated one
interested_5000 : changes as soon as you get west of say elgin
interested_5000 : oh...
mediamaven: i know what you mean
mediamaven: okay you know what
mediamaven :i do know some things i want
interested_5000 : oh?
Mediamaven : you are looking for someone who gonna fit in
interested_5000 : ummm....fit in what?
Mediamaven : fit into your life plan
interested_5000 : ok.....sure
mediamaven : you want someone who can ease into what you are doing
interested_5000 : or close
interested_5000 : nah.....i dont want to change anyone
interested_5000 : never works
mediamaven : no it never does
interested_5000 : k....my head is starting to hurt
interested_5000 : lol
mediamaven : me too
mediamaven: so much for what i want
mediamaven : anyways
mediamaven : good luck with car
interested_5000 : no....you can tell me what i want
interested_5000 : oops....you
mediamaven : see
interested_5000 : no no no
mediamaven : that might be your problem
interested_5000 : you!
mediamaven : lol
interested_5000 : geez
interested_5000): <~~~~~needs aspirin
interested_5000 : and a blowjob
interested_5000 : lol
mediamaven : here's some advice
mediamaven : make sure they like sex
mediamaven: that's one thing i would never compromise on again
mediamaven : ever
mediamaven : okay i gotta go
interested_5000 : lol....ok
mediamaven : cya
interested_5000 : thanks for the talk
interested_5000: bye
